My blog has simply become too known by people I know and I am unable to continue writing in it the way I feel a blog should be written to. Thus, I've moved it to a new directory. If you're reading this, then you're someone I'd want to read it.

Technically, this is only fall out from one group of people. Sarah, Stefin, Collin, Talitha and Other Pat. It's not a matter of not liking them or wanting to be able to vent or talk shit about them here. Not at all. It's simply because due to the sticky and drawn out ending with Sarah I don't think it'd be good for any of them to continue reading my blog and continue seeing the way things are going in my life.

All day I've been thinking about one thing. In a relationship, is how things are at the beginning, worth the way things are at the end? Basically, do those good feelings you get when everything's fresh and new and fun. When you're happy. Are those feelings worth the price of how horrible things feel when things end and you move on. "Better to have loved and lost than never loved at all?" - somehow, I doubt that.

I don't know why I feel so paniced and lonely tonight. Eating Banana Banaza ice cream. Typing in a blog. Pat continues to gravitate from one extreme to another. No longer is his god pot and alcohol. No. His new god is.. well.. God. What is it with God? Why does he always show up when you least expect it and woo the people who you would least expect him to. Sarah? Pat?

Pat sold his Xbox and Halo 2. Indeed, he sold all of his consoles and games. Why? Because he felt that it was wasting time he could better put to use in creative endeavors. And because he felt uncomfortable with a game that was training him to kill people.

He also sold Doom 3 because he thought it glorified demons.

Where the fuck did this come from? Pat hasn't been the same since, indeed during, Anime Central. Now instead of a preoccupation with getting high or drunk, he has a preoccupation with the divine. Or at least, the possibilities of the divine. Yet I can't help but find this destructive as well.

Anyway, after two weeks in Aurora I came back to Chicago for a couple nights and got his voice message on XBox Live talking about getting off Halo 2 forever. And it really bummed me out.

Maybe I'm just bitter because it's July and I don't have a radio show going, nor do I have any new films under my belt. Although, my two student films are sitting around waiting to be put online... But I really want to get back to work with Stu and Pat. But for some reason, when the time comes, I can't convince myself to get involved.

But in general, things have been going good this summer, and well.. I feel like I should be happier right now.

Especially since last night a new girl fell asleep in my lap, and I walked a new girl home, and kissed a new girl.

And now she's in miami... till the end of summer.