Apocalypse impending
Music: The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony
Feel: Awake

Macedonia admits staging raid, killing innocents

Photos of Iraqis Being Abused by US Personnel

The Daniel Pearl Video (warning: very graphically violent propaganda content)


What the fuck is wrong with people?
- posted by Brendan @ 10:55 PM 0 comments

 
Health
Music: Tupac - All Eyez on Me
Feel: Groggy, as usual

Sarah's been sick the past two days and being such a dutiful boyfriend, I've been around her trying to make her feel better. Yesterday afternoon I stopped over to see her and brought The Rundown DVD for us to watch. This is the second time in the past 6 mo that she's been sick, and last time I made it out unscathed so I'm hoping that this time around I don't get sick either. I felt bad for her, because not only did she have the flu - but she was also forced to work 3 hrs in the morning despite her complete inability to do much of anything in her condition. Bah.

I've been having extremely weird dreams lately. I think I'm stressing out - I know I am. There's so much going on right now, both in classes and interpersonal relationships. It really kind of sucks. And I'm still not 100% sure I know how I feel about going to Columbia. If there was someplace else I could go - I'd do it in a heartbeat. But I don't know where else I should be. I love my apartment, but at this rate I'm going to be losing it - which may or may not be for the best. Honestly, I kind of liked Waubonsee more than I like Columbia. :-
I'm so afraid of letting down the people that care about me, especially my mom, and I don't know what's keeping me from really excelling here like I have in the past. I feel so goddamn unmotivated. I know the only fix is to just 'do it'. But every time I get into that mindset and start doing it, I get bored right away and move on. It really sucks.


I can't wait for summer... I'll have Production I to worry about, but hopefully I can finally prove myself there.

Other than that, I may not have much of a summer at all.
- posted by Brendan @ 12:54 PM 0 comments

 
Cont'd
Music: Weezer - American Gigolo
Mood: Fed up



Okay, so after plugging in my honest answers here, that's what I'm supposed to look like in my underwear. So.. um... who's wrong? The virtual model or my body? I propose it's my body. Fucker.

I want a kitty cat.

Incidentally, that vid is now my official cheer-up device. I can't look at it and not smile or giggle. God bless kitties.

Also... Menthol's doing another show on May 15th. Woo!

Wait.. May 15th?! NOOOOO! That's the Saturday of Anime Central? Goddammit!

...

Where's that kitty vid..?
- posted by Brendan @ 12:10 AM 0 comments

 
And then...
Music: None
Mood: Not sure.. I think "Mood" should change to "Feeling" since what I write here is rarely a "mood"...

So, I really need to get out there and make some friends at school. Because I'm incedibly bored and would much rather be hanging out with some people than sitting here ranting in a blog. All I do now during the week, outside of the random meets with Sean or David, is wither away in my apartment. I played all of Max Payne 2 today.. it's a short game, yeah, but fuck.. I feel so isolated and lonely.

But there is a significant problem that's restricting my 'get out and make friends' plan. The events that I would go to, the clubs I would join, and thereby meet people, are all on weekends. And weekends either I'm in Aurora seeing friends there, or have friends (or Sarah) visiting me here. And I don't see any way to reconcile that.

What I really need is a fucking job. Summer can't come too soon.
- posted by Brendan @ 9:45 PM 0 comments