Mood: Frustrated
Music: Eminem - Without Me

Eminem music = summer, to me. Every time he releases a CD, it becomes - it would almost seem - the official anthem of that summer. Specifically the first single from that album, if not the whole thing. Which is why I'm listening to last year's single. I want to think summer - and that means Eminem music :)

It's about 7am as I'm writing this and I'm picking up Karena and Alyssa, and meeting Katie, for breakfast in an hour and a half. I intended on going to bed early last night and so to ensure that worked out (having to get up at 7am? Gah! That's soooo high school), I took a nice helping of drowsy formula sinus tablets and then, to cap it off, a dose of nyquil. Yeah, by about 11:30 last night I was ready for bed. At 12 my cell phone started ringing and woke me up. I angrily began shuffling around looking for it so I could shut it up and by the time I found it it had stopped, but notifed me that it was the second call I had missed. But I really didn't care, and shut it off.

Fast forward about 3 hours. 3am. I wake up. This is what happens when I try to control my sleeping patters with drugs. I sleep great for about 3 or 4 hours, and then cannot fall back asleep. I just laid there cursing nyquil for not letting me sleep all the way through. A half hour later I decided to check my phone and see if the missed calls were a drug-induced hallucination or if they really happened. Not only were they real, but I ended up missing 4 calls and had 3 voicemails. Now, keep in mind these calls all had to be post 11:30pm -- and no one EVER calls me after 11:30 for the most part. The one night I decide to go to bed early it would seem everyone and their sister wanted to get in touch with me (huh huh ha..). Ironically there was voicemail from Katie confirming breakfast, and voicemail from Karen ranting that I wasn't available to talk. I feel so.. popular.

Well, whatever they all wanted I hope they figured it out because I wasn't about to call people at 4am and instead went online which takes me to where I am now. I got the new layout for the Stray Radio website ready. While I consider my design approach fairly minimalist, the layout that's on there right now is just *too* minimal :P I'm pretty happy with what I've got ready for the next update. So at least I accomplished something during my periods of sleeplessness. Also, Richard came online at about 5am so I had a fellow insomniac to talk to for a while and pass the time.

Anyhow, it's getting close to 7:15 so I guess I better hop in the shower and get ready for breakfast.
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I just got an email that pretty much articulated all the fears I had about Stray Radio in the back of my head that I shut away as to not back out of it. But now that I know at least one other person has noticed the same things I did, all those misgivings I had are back and I'm afraid.

I'm afraid that this is going to be a big failure and wind up a short-run cop-out. How am I going to keep this up at the end of summer when I'm away at school and Pat's here? I'm afraid I'm wasting people's time and jerking the audience around. I'm afraid ending Otaku no Radio, regardless of the circumstances surrounding that, was a GIANT mistake and I turned my back on a huge opportunity.

I guess the next episode of Stray Radio will reveal how well this is going to go. It's strange. I sway from being incredibly excited about what Stray Radio could be to being disgusted with it and not wanting to do it at all. Otaku no Radio never felt like this.

I know I sound like an indecisive crybaby. But I'm depressed and confused and scared about this whole thing. I'm afraid Stray Radio can't stand in the shadow of Otaku no Radio and people are only going to think "It's okay.. but it's not as good as Otaku no Radio." Which I know is what everyone thinks. It's what I think.


I'm sorry everyone. I'll try to do better.
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Half-Life 2 is coming.

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Mood: Cooooold (okay, not a mood - but my room is freezing!)
Music: Tupac - All Eyez on Me

I'm at a loss as to what to rant about tonight but Karen is pressuring me to keep this updated as much as possible so forgive me is this entry is pretty, well, uninteresting.

Well, the first episode of Stray Radio is currently up and available. Like I said earlier, it's a decent episode except for the whole second half being practically inaudible because of the wind. Goddamn. I strongly considered trashing this episode because of that but decided doing so may make it look like we were never getting off the ground. Speaking of never getting off the ground, the Boogiepop site is indeed being worked on.. just not as much as it should be. It'll be ready, uh.. "soon".

Ah, might as well point this out. My Boogiepop Phantom Music Video is available for download. This was to be my darkhorse entry to ACen this year, but it was replaced in favor of my 'new' video. Hope that was a wise decision.

I don't remember if I mentioned it here but I was all happy a few weeks ago because I had 10 pages of a screenplay hammered out for the movie Pat and I are intending to make over the summer. I wrote it in one day and was very pleased with how it was going. Well damn - turns out my idea of how this story would play out was about as opposite from Pat's as could possibly be. For one thing, he doesn't want any female characters and I was writing it with a female character. Not only that, but the female character was the fucking lead :P Woops. Time to start over. Too bad he didn't give me a better idea of what he wanted to story to be like before I started writing. That's the thing about trying to write a script based on someone else's ideas.


Ummm..


Hmmmmmm.




Yeah. I got nothing.
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My cat has this habbit of killing rabbits, birds, mice, etc. that he can catch and proudly bringing them home to us during the early morning hours (which is why he doesn't go out in the morning anymore :P). This afternoon I was looking at him, and this being Easter, I got to thinking about my cat being responsible for murdering the Easter Bunny.. and so I decided to scribble out a quick comic about it. It turned out a little more brutal than I intended, but eh... Happy Easter ^_^;;

This has been a pretty cool weekend, that has been overflowing with food it would seem. Must be the holiday. Friday night I went to see Phone Booth again with Alyssa and Karen and I was happy to find that I was just as entertained the second time around as I was the first time. After the movie we ended up driving around town before ended up at Meijer. They had a cool sparkley belt with stars on it but Karen felt it would be an ill advised purchase. Aww..

Saturday saw the recording of the first episode of Stray Radio with Pat. It's a rocky start but I think as good as anything we did on Otaku no Radio. The only problem is that we lack an adequate place to record the show outside of my car. Which strikes me as sort of pathetic. On one hand it's kind of quirky that gives it a cool little texture (the sound of rain on the hood this week :P) and goes with the whole "stray" idea, but on the other hand the wind interference on this week's episode sucks (we learned out lesson about that this week). It'll be interesting to see how this develops ^_^;

Monica Lewinsky is hosting the new FOX dating reality show Mr. Personality. How sick is that? What is this woman's claim to fame? She sucked Bill Clinton's dick. Woo. Let's give her a TV show. God bless America.

I dug up some of my old Cub Scouts pics (apparently I *was* a Boy Scout for a brief time. Wee!) so I'll be "revising" my previous entry with pics, hehe...
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